It’s been a while since I’ve shared something really personal on my blog, so bare with me on this post. For the last little while, I’ve been struggling with the direction my life has been going in. I’ve had some pretty rough days that only a few of my close friends have witnessed. It’s like every time I take 1 step forward, I’m pushed 5 steps backwards. I’m a gemini so I know that I feel things a lot deeper than most people, I always say that my high’s are the highest and my low’s are the lowest – no lie! I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching, trying to figure out where these negative feelings stem from and how to correct them. I’m convinced that the universe is trying to send me a message that for some reason isn’t clear to me or that I subconsciously don’t want to hear. Either way, my patience is definitely being tested… which is also something I’m trying to work on.
The reason why I’ve decided to share a little bit about what I’ve been going through is solely because I feel like someone else might be going through something similar! I know how difficult it can be to go through things and if I can help someone feel less alone by sharing my personal journey, I’m more than happy to. I feel like every one is put on this earth with a purpose at hand. I’ve always felt that my purpose in some way was to experience things and share it with the world. There’s actually even a quote that I heard when I was a kid that stuck with me “Knowing everything won’t do you any good, unless you use it to put beauty into this world”. Although I’m currently in the middle of figuring out my own situation, I do have a few things that I’d suggest to anyone feeling down to try out.
1. As difficult as it may be you have to try and stay positive. Positivity attracts positivity, so even if it’s small things in your life that are going well, use those to lift yourself out of your funk. 2. Take as much time to yourself as you need. It’s important to acknowledge what you’re feeling and to figure out why it is that you feel that way. 3. Remember, this too shall pass! It’s so important to remember that nothing last forever and in time, everything gets better! It’s probably not the first time you’ve felt this way and probably won’t be the last. It’s merely growing pains and this life lesson will make the next chapter of your life feel that much better!
Ps. incase you want to know where my look is from, see below!
What I’m Wearing
Khaki Cotton Sateen Photographer Suit Jacket – EXPRESS | Slim Photographer Non-Iron Dress Pant – EXPRESS | Flex Stretch Cotton V-Neck Tee – EXPRESS| Kiehl’s Shoe (old) – Adidas Originals |
It’s been a little while since I’ve last posted, please forgive me! It’s all been for good reasons though, I’ve got a lot of cool projects coming up that I’m very excited to share with you guys, I just want it to be perfect when I do. That being said, let’s get to the topic at hand of this blog post… don’t settle. This is something that we hear very often but let’s be honest it’s a lot easier said than done, especially in the realm of love!
I’m on a beautiful twisted journey, that I have no control of xx – That’s a recent quote that I posted on social media that really resonates with me in regards to how I feel about life right now. Over the last few months, consciously and subconsciously I’ve been doing a lot of self discovery and soul searching. I’ve been exploring different ways to create a deeper connection with the universe, myself, and those closest to me. It’s been interesting, frustrating, exciting and intimidating all at the same time. Last week I decided that I needed to get out of the city for a few days and just have some quality time to myself. I chose Miami, Florida as my destination… it’s close by, it’s familiar and for me there’s nothing more calming than the beach and warm weather. The time away was exactly what I needed, from the moment I arrived to my last evening in the sunshine state, the universe continuously sent me signs that strengthened my recent discoveries. It was a magical experience that I can’t even properly describe with words and maybe that’s just how it’s supposed to be. I don’t want to get too much into details about my discoveries as of yet but incase you guys are going through something similar I’d encourage you guys to explore those feelings. Don’t brush them off and think things will just get better, those feelings will come back and it’s the universe’s way of telling you to dig deeper, usually within yourself. Ask yourself questions like what makes you happy, what makes you feel fulfilled, what are you passionate about, are you pursuing your purpose? Be prepared to answer those questions honestly and to explore why you’ve come to those conclusions. On a side note, one thing that I do want to share is that if you can, try traveling alone. I almost forgot how liberating and powerful it can be. Going to a new place in the world where nobody knows you and you have to do everything on your own helps build your confidence and self-esteem like nothing else.